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I Really Want You

I can no longer fight the urge to keep my feelings locked away.
I want you, is what I really should say.
But what effect could it have?
Would you stay another day?

I really want you, please understand.
I don’t want to hurt you, or make you do anything you don’t want to.
It’s just that every day without you I fall deeper, grow darker and more desperate.
I hear you talk and talk about another, and I’m really getting sick of it.

I toss and I turn at night, knowing you’ll never be mine.
I twist and I burn, knowing I’ll never be fine.
There’s no sense in hiding it anymore.
I don’t think I even can hide it anymore.

I’m lost, with no one and nothing to guide me.
My own heart has betrayed me now, making me write this down.
And I look up, think of you, and I frown.
Why is this so damned hard?

I want you, but I want you to want me as well.
I can’t go on like this, being a lifeless shell.
Once again I’ll twist and I’ll turn, I’ll toss and I’ll burn,
Thinking of you and the one you’re always speaking about...

I really want you, that’s true, and I will say it out loud.

26-06-‘09

Robert Brame